How can I understand?
Is it possible to know
How feelings truly flow
They bend and they twist
They fly and they fall
I can’t always tell where they will go
Some days it seems certain they will burst
Like a dam giving way to a storm
Others it feels as if they’ve left me alone
Like the sun in the winter cold
Why does my mind like to disagree?
With the way my feelings go
Why do my thoughts like to clash
With the way my feelings flow
Can one really describe
What I truly feel inside
Walking through this world I’m in
My vision full of black and gray
A subtle dark perpetrates everything I seem to think and say
How did I get here, and why do I stay?
Why does the world suddenly look so bleak and gray
There is no great crisis, none this day
Yet my soul seems to almost groan, as if in pain
Perhaps the storms of life have caused a wrongful change
For they did rock me, and still sometimes come
In their wake they leave me weary,
My mind in confusion, my feelings spun
Yet all of it combined cannot stay the rise of the shining sun
For there is too much blessing, too much love for this gray to last
Like rain His love pours, His blessings shower down
With it the love of my family, my friends, also rains down
In this gentle rain the black and gray is soon washed away
And afterwards, a beautiful rainbow shines in its place.